It was during those days and nights that I was gifted with the miraculous lessons of pain.
Presence.
Awareness.
Insight.
New...
Thoughts, choice and actions.
New outcomes.
And eventually, new reality.
One degree at a time.
The suffering diminished.
Then it ended... but I have accepted that this struggle is an inescapable part of the human journey and to deny pain is to prevent ourselves from feeling the fullness of life itself.
I have often wondered who am I to dare share these thoughts and ideas that have made my life what it is today?
Ego may be a vehicle for purpose, but what if all my talk, and videos, and words...
Are just my attempt to be needed and therefore validated?
Have I experienced pain?
Sure. We all have. Welcome to Earth, right?
The short list?
Hospitals with broken body parts.
Losses in the ring.
Long stretches of no money and no idea how to get it.
Personal relationships torpedoed and collapsed, often largely by my own doing.
The sinking feeling and realization that I was without anything to hold on to... And a time of self imposed isolation and depression stretched to an extreme that made reaching out to friends and family an impossible endeavor, something I couldn't imagine.
But there was always something that circled on the edge of my consciousness.
A faint sense that it would all be alright.
And it got better. I learned that my thoughts were under my control, even if there was old momentum that felt uncontrollable.
Then it kept getting better, one degree of relentlessly focused optimism at a time.
I often time travel in my mind back to the old me.
I tell that guy "Hang on man, it will get better... Better than you can understand, all you have to do is hang on."
I did, and the life I get to call my own today is the result.
How about you?
No matter where you're at, no matter how much pain and suffering might be part of your reality right now...
It can and it WILL get better.
And as Winston Churchill said, "When you find yourself going through Hell... Keep going."
In the spirit of our shared pain, and with our eyes toward the bold horizon that beckons us toward the new possibilities that our life has caused us to so madly and deeply desire, here are a few words that I sincerely hope can help.
Your future is unwritten.
Your Now is waiting.
You can do this.
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Here's To You... New .0
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You were never properly prepared to handle the world.
Not the way it is today.
And what preparation you did get was by people who probably wanted your conformity more than your contribution.
You were told to fit in, shut up, sit down, stand back, watch out, be safe and a whole bunch of other well intentioned bullshit that in one way or another affected your naturally brilliant trajectory...
And the echoes of those early critics can travel with you through time... Doing the same thing to you today that they did to you back then.
The critic will Dampen your spirit, and put pressure on your soul, causing you to play a smaller game of life than the whole big arena your innocent heart has always craved as the ideal scene of your prime...
And you've been playing catch up ever since.
You've hustled and you've pushed yourself quietly and not always receiving the recognition you're due...
Not even from yourself.
And now here we are - a simple moment of pause... Can take you out of the old and put you at cause..
Will you dismiss it this time?
Or can you sit tight for a few new lines of mental code carefully designed to erode the errors of an outdated mode of being?
You've watched opportunities pass you by, you've watched the time fly...
You've constructed an elaborate alibi for the reasons why that other guy can have what you want.
But the haunting reminders of those things you can only find inside yourself, those inner bells are ringing louder than ever,
This signal is crowding your endeavors with a soft silent inner scream of a soul tired of waiting - no more mentally masturbating to the hope of a dream that might someday still come true.
You have watched wrong be accepted as right, you've seen day turn to night, black vs. white and all the colors divided, distraction provided in a chaos of fractured focus...
And byte by bit, the light is less lit, the signal becomes noise, as distraction destroys our steam and our dreams -one bad habit at a time.
Being lost and unsure brought us costs we've endured to no end, and now my friend, comes this message to you...
That the pain of the past may at last be transformed.
Because your future is not formed by the muck and stuckness and pure fuckedupedness of past made mistakes either yours or theirs...
Your tomorrow need not borrow the layers of sorrow from yesterday's dismay and delusion...
We each do and did the best we can with what we had and who we were at the time... Is it such a crime to be all the time evolving the ever unfolding story of you?
Holding on to the past in a way that restricts you can seriously actually only conflict you, and for some this addiction to pain or blame or being numb became the grown-ass equivalent of sucking your thumb, an unconscious pastime pursued for the elusive illusion of security.
So now can you see?
There is a different way.
Can you even Imagine a life with No more shame, no more guilt - can you accept that your life is the house that you've built with the gifts you've been given that you can now explore or ignore, your inner secret talents to enjoy and deploy or hold onto and destroy...
It's a simple choice.
Want to change the world?
Then change yourself.
Not out of lack or of spite... Whether black or white or all the colors of the rainbow in between... Directing the scene that YOU cast yourself in is the only actual way TO win.
You want the world to change?
Then change it.
And do it by changing yourself.
Peace & Power
Jesse Elder
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